5 Things that You May Not Know About Me.

I’ve been here for a while now. There’s a fair few of you following my ramblings, so for that, I want to say a big thank you. When I began my journey here, I wasn’t sure how long it would last, but then I guess I didn’t have much confidence in my ability. You have all given me the confidence I need to write and ramble here.

That brings me to the point of today’s post. I like to be open here, and for you all to know who I am. I like to think that perhaps you’ll find something useful, or something to gain inspiration or motivation from. So, here are 5 things that you may not know about me:

  • Probably one of the main reasons that I started this blog was for a distraction. I used to struggle with my mind to a point of being unable to cope. This was mostly due to ten years of PTSD. I blogged my recovery progress, although compared to my writing ability today, it’s not very well written. This became a place for me to vent and grow comfortable with sharing my struggles. I have to say, it absolutely worked. I am free of all those things that stopped me from being me.
  • Adding to my struggles with mental health, I have OCD. It’s easy to manage these days, but one thing you may have noticed in my fiction is a theme of “four”. Four is the number of times that I compulsively check something. Locking doors and checking doorhandles is the worst. My mind doesn’t seem to believe something is done, until it’s checked four times. This can obviously make writing a long process… and somehow, those spelling mistakes still creep through.
  • I’m vegan. This is a fairly new journey for me, but I thought I’d add it here, for people that purely follow my blog. I became vegan around six months ago, mainly because of personal beliefs, but am also amazed at how different I am feeling physically and mentally. I also love cooking, so that added challenge of making my favourite meals vegan has been an enjoyable process. I’ve also developed a better eating routine and a meal plan that free’s up a load of my time. It’s really been a huge and positive change for me. My weight stays optimal. I have loads of energy. I can think clearly. I’m calmer, and as a result, I can handle anxiety more easily. Good nutrition is a powerful thing.  
  • Whilst growing up, I had always wanted to be a guitarist in a band (I had long black hair and everything). I got my first guitar when I was sixteen, and have played on and off ever since. I can play to a decent level. My idol was Matt Heafy from Trivium, and the first song I learned to play was Like Light to the Flies. I also wrote songs and lyrics. This is probably where my creativity started, and it was another distraction for my mental health issues. Playing guitar, especially an electric, is a great release for anger and frustration, and teaches focus. I even got a letter published in Total Guitar magazine, during my teens. That was certainly a highlight of my angsty youth.
  •  I had learning difficulties when I was young. I was very slow to read and developed my writing ability later in life than most. I had never been diagnosed with dyslexia, but I needed a lot of extra help. Even at thirteen, I was yet to read a book. I remember it being frustrating times, and of course, I was singled out because of it. Believe it or not, but breaking out of the struggle all came down to teaching myself. The first book I read was Troy by Adele Geras, then I went on to read The Lord of the Rings trilogy by J.R.R Tolkein. I skipped school to read these, and went to the library instead… I was also quite a rebellious and stubborn teen, but it worked out for me… and trust me, I haven’t changed much.

Hope you found this post somewhat interesting. It’s still crazy to me that people follow my work and read my craziness. I love and appreciate you all.

(Also, if you haven’t had a look at my other project site yet, it’s right here: http://www.redefined-media.com.)

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  • Each one of your things reminded me of things I have struggled with and things my girls have too. I used to do everything in 3’s until one day I realized I was doing it and asked myself…”Why am I doing this?” And it was funny because I couldn’t come up with a good enough answer in my head, so I decided to right then and there to stop doing everything in 3’s. I look back now and wonder how I was able to break free from that so quickly. But I guess my mind just couldn’t rationalize the point of doing it any more, so I stopped. I wish it were that easy for everyone.

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    • I do find OCD very interesting, especially with how common it is. It’s great that you were able to break out of it so easily. Maybe you just have awesome willpower :P. Mine used to be a lot worse, so four was just me bringing it down to a manageable state. It’s like I made a compromise with it. I just see it as a quirk now. 🙂

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      • Well, I think I should explain how it all happened. It might be helpful in your profession to understand how I was able to stop. 😉 The way I remember it, one of my friends at school had mentioned the symptoms of OCD, but they were young like me and didn’t call it OCD. They just told me it was a strange thing that some people did. And it occurred to me in that moment, that I was doing the things they were describing. My friend had no idea that I had been doing everything in threes, and I hadn’t really thought about why I’d been doing it until then. So that’s when the realization hit me that I was doing something out of the ordinary. And that’s when my little girl brain decided to make the change. It’s weird how sometimes we don’t even know we’re doing things that might be strange or odd to other people. It probably makes things very hard to accomplish sometimes if you have to do everything in fours. But I noticed you didn’t make this post about 4 things and you instead you chose 5. And I kinda wondered if you purposely did that to help break the pattern. 😉

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      • That is very interesting. I think it was probably easier to stop because you were younger. We’re easier to mould in our earlier years. Also, realisation is a powerful thing. It’s like with anxiety disorders; when a person realises the signs of their anxiety getting out of hand, it can be controlled. It’s pretty much how CBT works 🙂. Thank you for sharing that. And thank you for noticing… it was so difficult for me not to write 4 😂.

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      • I completely agree… 😉 And I’m very thankful for that little girl who brought all of it up in conversation. And btw…. there are moments when I find myself overly checking things to be certain I’ve not forgotten something. I’m a perfectionist by nature, and so when I do make a mistake it really gets to me. Lol… So I know I never completely freed myself from OCD, I’m just not obsessed with the number 3 anymore. Kinda like how you lessened the amounts you were having to do things.

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  • Mmm, cool! I’m not brave enough to talk about my things, I’m also scared I’ve got a list of 555 🙂 maybe you does too haha you should def share more 🤓👋😀

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    • Aw, I think you should. I’d like to know these 555 things about you 😝. Maybe I will share more of mine… I do probably have about the same amount 🤪. I think a vegan diet is safe, as long as you transition slowly. I started to cut meat out of my diet for about a year, then other animal products after. I was worried about losing muscle mass, but I’m actually gaining from plant protein 💪. I haven’t had any issues so far, but I’ll let you know if I do… then you can say that you told me so. 😝

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      • Preparing my “speech” 😂 but if you’re making a slow transition it might work 🙂
        555 things in 365 days. Or in 1 day? 😅 No way… I’m too lazy for that 🙂

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      • 😂😂 But thank you for caring. I’ll probably do a whole post about going vegan. You might find it interesting 🙂. Hmm, maybe do one a day, for 555 days 😂. Does sound like effort though 😝.Thank you for your comments. Always appreciated 😊.

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      • :)) yes, share your vegan experience. I’m up for going vegan for 1 week or 2!! 😅😀

        & it’s difficult to stay on track 555 & writing/blogging all the time 🙂 we need time for ourselves & to chill too 😌😉

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  • I’ve heard those who moved too quickly to vegan diet (!!sometimes, not always) got kidney stones, so lots of celebs dropped off it & moved to vegetarian instead…

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  • I’m suspicious of vegan diet. I think you have to eat it from early childhood – to be used to it; or maybe it’s possible to make a vegan week (I do sometimes, at home). But that’s all…

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